Abyss

You go through a variety of phases similar to the moon, dare I say it. Although, the moon is more predictable as to what phase it is in, unlike life where you kind of just guess until after the phase is over you’ll be certain as to what phase you went through.

There are general phases: infant, childhood, puberty, teenager, adulthood, parenthood, retirement/grandparent. Once you hit 18 the phases are less and less predictable. You’ll be able to point out what phases others are in because you’re an outsider looking in. When it comes to your own life, it could be more of a challenge.

Abyss

For 18 years of my life, I was in school consistently k-master’s degree. Seem’s like a lot, it was, but it was completely worth it. I’ve been out of school for a little over a year now, and I have no ambition or motive to do anything; I’m in abyss. I have no desire to marry nor have children. I have no desire to be a homeowner. I have no desire in changing my work place because I love where I work and what I do. This is no place to be though or so what society has told me. Why? Because this is the time I am supposed to be putting myself out there, finding a mate for life and settling down, starting a family.

Here I struggle to understand what is next for me. I am a planner, wherever I go I have some plan or an idea as to what needs to happen. When those plans are washed away, I’m at a complete and total loss. I shut down. I melt like a snowman on a hot summer day, tears and all. I’m learning to be okay with not having a plan, after all you can’t plan for everything in life, sometimes you just got to roll with the punches.

My words for you, Keep on dreaming and don’t stop.

It’s been a while…

It’s been a while since I published anything here. I’ve withdrawn myself from a lot over the past year. I like to tell myself that life just got busy, but in reality I got lazy and unmotivated to write anymore. I’ve wrote off and on over the past year but never did it cross my mind to jump on here and post about it, because this was a place for my poetry; my grade A material. After all, the audience reacted more for poetry than anything.

Ever lose sight of your hobbies? Ever wonder if you could pick back up again?
Will it be the same?

So here I am, again. Seems like a reoccurring theme for me here, to start and stop writing. I’m not certain why as I have a lot to say about the world and a means to express it. I just need to make the time to put it down. As any creator would share with the world,

The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of of knowledge but rather a lack in will.

I’ll start with typing my journal entries and then see where life takes me from there. I cannot guarantee that my two cents will be actually worth two cents but who knows. This could inspire others to keep going.

Here’s to the future, may it be a bright one; ’til next time.