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Closed Doors

I’m sure you’e heard the saying, when one door closes, another opens or something similar. It often refers to failing or losing one thing and a new opportunity appears shortly after.

But what about doors you’ve closed?

Once I graduated from my master’s program, life really fell apart and together at the same time. I started a career and focused only on that, closing my master’s degree door behind me.

I locked it and threw away the key.

Why you ask? It’s not like I hated the program, in fact I met some of the best people in the program and gained so much experience from it that I cherish. It was such a dark time for me towards the end, I dropped the ball on everything except what made me money. Yes including family.

I’m not a quitter but this time I quit.

I was so engrossed during my study time that when I left, I quit with all my heart and now I feel guilty about it. I want to make mends with the program director and everyone involved in the program. I also feel guilty of the wasted hours spent on me.

Can closed doors be reopened?

The good thing about doors they typically can be reopened again unless they are cinder blocked off then you may just have to bust it down but never the less you can reopen a closed door.

I’m not sure if I’m ready to reopen that door. Then again we shouldn’t stare too long at the closed door otherwise we miss out on the opportunities starting at us.

Til Next Time.

-WN

Room for Failure

Box by box,
I pack up expectations.

Move over
new followers,
improved writing,
increased exposure.

I need room.
Room for failure.

Einstein failed school,
yet changed physics.
E=mc

Emily Dickenson was ignored,
yet she wrote 1,800 poems.

Beethoven stopped practicing,
yet composed beloved symphonies.

Move over expectations,
failure is needing space.

Call Center

Ring, Ring, Ring
for three hours
that’s what I hear.

Others murmur about their days,
or gossip about one another
while they wait for a ‘Hello.’

Time to time that stranger
is invested in my voice,
for the company.

Rejection after rejection
hollows me out.
I leave the shift
wearing my failure.

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